I remember the day I found out I was pregnant with Baily. I had just returned home from a book buy for work and was unpacking my bag. I got to the bottom and saw a box of tampons. A BOX OF TAMPONS!!! I was supposed to start the beginning of the week and didn't. I HAVEN'T STARTED!!!! MAYBE I'M PREGNANT!!!
7 Week--A Baby
The thought of being a mom was both amazing and terrifying. There are so many things I could do wrong. So many ways I could totally screw this kid up. Yet, I couldn't wait to meet my boy!
January 20, 1998
8 lbs 5 oz
This day forever changed me! It was the day I found out who I wanted to be when I grow up. A mom. His mom! They put him in my arms and I was complete. The love I felt in an instant was unbelievable.
This boy! He was and is always making a mess. Always dirty! Always full of life. From the start he had the best imagination and could play for hours. If there were a way to get dirty or messy he was all about it. To this day he brings more dirt in the house than anyone else. It's funny how the things that sometimes get on your nerves the most are the very things you love the most.
He is the most determined kid I know. When he puts his mind to something its as good as done. I love this about him. I love that he picked up the guitar one day and decided to learn a song. He took a few pointers from his dad and practiced all day. Since then he has taught himself to play the piano and banjo, too. He wants to farm so he planted his own corn. I have watched him take care of his crops from working the dirt to planting the send to watching it grow.
He loves his mama! Blessed doesn't seem to be enough to describe the relationship I have with this boy. Words--I can't seem to find them. I was 24, fresh out of college and scared to death that I would do everything wrong. I knew from past experience that when you tell a child NO they will go and do just what you told them not to. I prayed constantly asking God how do I do this. How do I raise this boy not to make my mistakes? The only answer I kept getting with honesty. So that is what I did. I was always honest with him. I may of given him a honest answer a little boy would understand, but I gave it to him. When he was a teen I gave him honest answers about the things he would be faced with. I always told him how I felt, how I don't want him to make a bad choice, but in the end its him who has decide if he wants to do something.
I am incredible thankful for the strong faith he has. For the willpower he has and the ability to tell someone no.
He has the most amazing heart! He finds good in people. He cares about his friends. He loves his family. He is an amazing big brother. He loves God. At 18 he has the heart and soul of old man. I have watched him love and take care of his Paw. I have heard his friends call for help and he drops what he is doing and goes to them.
He is my country boy through and through! He is hunting, fishing and farming. He is all about the outdoors. He is a noise with dirt on it and he will always be my little boy.
My heart is full! My son is now a man and heading off to college in 2 short months. Its been a pleasure to watch him grow up these last 18 years. I am a proud mother who is ready to see what her boy will do as he goes out into this world. I am confident that he will be more than okay! :)
Baily you are one amazing kid! You have made life so much more than I ever thought possible. You may be leaving for college, but we will always be your home. I will love you forever--to infinity and beyond. I LOVE YOU LONG TIME!