Monday, January 1, 2018

January Jump Start

First off, I want to say thank you so much to everyone who reached out after my "Dancing On The Edge" post the other day.  Your words, thoughts and prayers have warmed my heart so much!!  Thank you so very much! I think one of the best medicine's is talking and sharing with one another.

I want to start this year off in full force!  The quickest way to form a habit is to do something consistently so I have a few challenges for January.

TEN MINUTES A DAY

The first is to get active DAILY!!  That's right every single day we need to do some of form of exercise.  A minimum of 10 minutes a day.  Go for a walk, a run, a quick 10 minute workout, hit a class at the gym, do some weight training, jump rope, jumping jacks or whatever physical activity you can think of.  Just get moving daily!

PHOTO CHALLENGE


Just follow the list above and get your picture each day.  You can post your photo's daily, weekly or wait till the end of the month and do them all at once.  Post them on your blog, Instagram, Twitter or Facebook.  When you post on social media use the hashtag #kcphotochallenge. Be sure to leave a comment with a link to your photo's and/or link up this post to your photo's so more can join in.

VISION BOARD

It's a new year and with that comes goals and resolutions so lets make a Vision Board of our goals for 2018.  I saw this idea on Pinterest the other day and loved it.  List your goals, pictures, quotes and whatever inspires you.  Be sure to share your board on your blog/social media and leave a link in comments so we can all check it out.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Let's make 2018 the greatest!

Saturday, December 30, 2017

Dancing on the Edge

To share or not to share?  That has been the question for me this week.  Sharing means letting everyone in on something I have kept all to myself.  In the end I believe that is the reason its worth sharing.  If anyone has had the kind of year I have had I want you to know you are not alone.

Where do I begin?  How do I explain something I am not 100% certain of?  Dancing on the edge is what always comes to mind when I try to put into words how I have felt most of this year.  Let me begin by saying that I am normally the happiest person in the crowd, the positive one, the one making the most of life.  This past year that has been very difficult for me.


This new state of mind kinda just snuck up on me.  I wasn't waking up happy, negative thoughts were beginning to take over the positive, things I usually enjoyed became more like work.  I would go to work and put on a happy face, but the second I left I was going home and sleeping.  I didn't want to work out, run, cook, go out with friends/family or anything.  My thoughts would go to very dark places, I was have horrible dreams and I would cry a lot.

I would get so mad at myself.  I would question why I am feeling like this?  What is happening to me?  You need to snap out of this right now!  You are not this person!  Things would get better, but it was still there lingering in the background.

Summer was the best time for me, but soon as August hit it came back in full force. August was the worst month of my life.  Everything I normally enjoyed I hated. I didn't want to do anything.  I didn't want to be around people.  I hated myself for feeling like I felt, yet I was doing nothing to change it. September was not much better, but I finally started trying to pull myself out of whatever it was I was going through.  It wasn't until end of October/first of November that I finally felt the gloom and doom leaving me.
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I am not sure if I was battling depression or just life changes, but it wasn't pretty.  I look back now and realize its been a year of changes that I was not ready for me.  I turned 44.  My life has been my boys and they didn't need me anymore.  Since Bay had a job where he went to school he pretty much stayed there.  E had school, baseball and video games. I went from working with kids/babies (that need you 100% of the time) to the corporate world.  I was home by 1 everyday and no one was there.  No one needed me.  I had no motivation to clean, work out, run or anything I would lay around and let the horrible thoughts take over.  When 4:30 rolled around I would make myself get up and make supper and get ready for the fam to get home.  Put on a happy face because I don't need to drag them into whatever is going on with me.

End of October I met up with my girlfriends for a fun weekend in Kentucky.  It was 5 hours alone in the car.  I was trying to pump myself up, find my happy.  Saturday we got up to do our half and I was dying.  My best friend was running with me and she was so happy.  I wanted to punch her in the face because I was so miserable.  I was slowing her down and bringing her happy down.  She finally took off and left me and I just cried because I didn't know why I felt this way.  I am with the girls I have been friends with my whole life, they are the easiest people to be happy around and I am feeling like this. The next morning I got up and left to head home.  I broke down and just begged God to help me because I didn't want to feel this way anymore.  I didn't want to pretend I was great anymore.

Slowly, I started to push myself to take care of me.  I started running and working out again.  I may not have a church to call home, but I do have God and begin to talk to him more and more and read my Bible again.  I transitioned to full-time at my job (which was a blessing).  Instead of crawling inside myself and letting the crappy thoughts take over I reached out.  I would make list of all the positive in my life and focus on them.  Slowly the bad became less and less.  My happy was coming back.


Until I went through this I never understood people like Robin Williams.  They make people laugh for a living, but on the inside they are miserable.  That is why I felt it was important to share.  If you are struggling with life reach out to God, a friend, anyone.  Don't let yourself continue to sink deeper.  Don't let the negative win.  Realize that even if all the people that always needed you need you less, it doesn't mean they don't love you and want you in their life. Live and enjoy this one life you were given.

The sad, depressing feelings still like to try to creep in still, but I fight them.  I remind myself how much I have to live for.  I remind myself that I have this one life and I need to live it to the fullest.  I need to push myself to do the things I said I couldn't and make goals that I might not reach, but I sure can have a lot of fun trying.

I find that I love to motivate others.  That is gives me purpose.  So I am going to start blogging more.  Posting challenges. Sharing my struggles and my triumphs!  So stay tuned for what's to come in 2018! :) 


Wednesday, December 27, 2017

The Maiden Voyage

I am a little late posting this, but we took our maiden voyage in our tiny camper!  It was a wonderful trip to one of the most beautiful places---St Joseph Peninsula in Florida!



If you want to get away to a secluded spot this is where you need to go!  Although the campground with pretty full it didn't feel like it.  The most we saw at the beach was 12-16 people.  Because it was so far from the mainland at night it is a stargazers paradise.  During the day you have the beach, trails, fishing, geocaching and relaxing!

Our camper made the trip just fine and it slept great.  We were really happy with it and can't wait to take it out again in the spring.





And before I say good-bye here is a look at a little of the fun we had...

Beach naps are best!

Love early morning beach runs!

Miles of white sand and hardly any people.

Butterflies everywhere on the trails!

I have never seen so many crabs as we did along the bay side.



Geocaching is fun!






Crabs, dolphins and sharks on my!

Saw these cat tracks on one of my morning runs.

This is a Florida State Park you want to visit---

Happy Holidays!

Thursday, October 5, 2017

If you build it the adventures will begin...

Camping is in my blood.  It all started with a character tent and backyard adventures with my little brother.  As a teen when I went to friends houses we had slumber parties, but if the party was at my house we were popping up a tent at the edge of the woods and sneaking a bottle (or two) of Boone's Strawberry Hill.  The camping continued with my husband, Kevin and our boys.  We went from tent to pop-up to travel trailer.

A couple years ago our boys became busy teen's and the camping became less and less.  So we got got rid of the travel trailer and went back to a tent which limited when we could camp since tent camping and humidity don't mix well.

Last fall while camping at the beach my husband brought up the idea of building a tiny camper big enough for a comfortable nights sleep.  Something small enough we could pull it with the jeep.  Basically an air conditioned box.  I told him it sounded like a plan to me.  Winter came and went and nothing every happened with the tiny camper idea.  Spring got here and still nothing.  June rolls around and we now have a trailer, some wood and big ideas.


By the first of July we have a BOX!

Once the box is built its time to get it on the trailer and make sure it will all fit together...




Part 1 is a success now onto doors and windows oh my!







Next was LOTS of painting!  We primed and painted the entire box inside and out.  Even put a epoxy coating on the roof to give it extra protection from the weather.






I wanted to add a cool touch to the ceiling!  It took me hours, but was so worth it!
 

This guy left a part of himself in Orlando...
 


We have some lighting


Time for some AC!!

This camper box is just shy of 5x8 feet and the height is a little less then 4' so we wanted a nice cushioned flooring to make it easier on our old knees.  We went with a foam flooring that looked like dark bamboo wood.


Kevin wanted to paint some graphics on the camper and what better then a silhouette of the famous Sasquatch!
 


And here is our Tiny Camper...

She is ready!

This was a fun family project for us summer that we hope to enjoy for years to come.  We have learned over the years when you do something yourself you appreciate and take care of it a lot better then when you just go buy something.  Our tiny camper was built for around $1000 (the trailer we already owned).  I am in the process of making curtains and Kevin has a few finishing touches to add, but she is ready for her maiden voyage!

We need a name for our tiny camper--yall got any ideas??

Stay tuned for details about our maiden voyage!